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Diary of a Heretic New Look AXIS MUNDI

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Welcome to the New Look Axis Mundi ~ The Free eMagazine of Spheres Of Light

This is our first major change since Axis Mundi’s inception in 2008 and I would like  to take this opportunity to give a big thank you to Jenny Taylor for all her dedication and hard work in helping set up Axis Mundi and all the time involved in coding and formatting the eMagazine over the past three years.

It is now an opportune moment to look back at our humble beginnings to see how far we have come.  The concept of Axis Mundi in the context of our magazine was envisioned as a central point where all ideologies and spiritual ideas converge. Axis Mundi’s objective is to be a repository of shared knowledge that is in a constant state of evolution. So for Axis Mundi to meet its objective it needs people to contribute articles, ideas, experiences and opinions etc.

Each issue contains articles and information that correspond to a seasonal theme and highlight the rhythms and cycles of the natural world and our lives. Each season colours our world with new insights and brings us to a deeper understanding of life.  It is through your  insights  and active participation that this online magazine will grow and develop into a publication that will empower  us on our journey through the realms of all possibilities personal, emotional, spiritual, and magical.

Diary of a Heretic Peeling back the layers

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At Sunday’s Meditation in the Park, there was this uncanny stillness. Quietness had permeated our little room in the forest and the trees stood motionless around us like silent sentinels, echoing the voice of winter. Even though these trees appeared to be in a state of stillness, in the darkness of the earth, their roots have extended far beneath the earth’s crust, winding their way to that dark fertile place, where life is constantly regenerating.

This season of increasing cold and darkness is an excellent time to retreat and reflect upon the self. This is a time to take a long look at yourself; to go all the way inside your skin, inside your mind, inside your heart, inside your emotions, burrowing deep within the dark crevices of your soul to find that fertile place.

If you are authentic with yourself and dive deep into the core of your unconscious mind, you may find this process challenging. But by taking this plunge into the unknown you may discover who you really are at the core of your being.

Although most people fear the unknown, there’s no real fear in this darkness. Soul reflection is demanding, and cannot be achieved at a surface level. Such is the work of the soul. Just as the heart has its own reasons, the soul has its own agenda and as we peel back the layers, new fears are unearthed and we are able to release more so we can evolve, heal and become whole.

Your vision will become clear only when you can look into your own heart. Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes. ~ Carl Jung

Janine Donnellan

Diary of a Heretic To sleep, perchance to dream

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Well it has been three weeks now since I left work and I have been taking the time to relax and recover before I get stuck into my creative projects. As indicated by the tarot card that I selected for this month’s reading, this is not a time for action, but a time to drift, to dream, to vision and to remember. This period of recuperation has been a time for me to meditate and welcome the inner stillness, so I that I can feed my spirit. Samhain now heralds the coming of the darkness and I welcome this opportunity for a new start as I incubate and strengthen my hopes for this change of life.

Interestingly, the coming of the darkness coincides with Neptune’s transit in Pisces. The Lord of the Sea can now take us deeper into our imagination. How many times this month have you experienced your dream state in such detail or found yourself lost in a wonderful dream-like state while listening to a piece of music or watching a film that you love? Our dream states can be portals through which we find meaning and colour in our life.

Neptune can be a bridge into the mysterious and we can use this opportunity during Samhain when the veil between the worlds is thin, to access the other worlds and tap into the collective unconsciousness.

And all my days are trances,
And all my nightly dreams
Are where thy grey eye glances,
And where thy footstep gleams–
In what ethereal dances,
By what eternal streams.

EDGAR ALLAN POE, To One in Paradise

Janine Donnellan

Diary of a Heretic Ides of March

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March has been one of those crazy months and I have been involved in finalising projects and training a new HR Manager to take over my position. Just dealing with the last days in the corporate world has taken its toll physically, mentally and emotionally. Anyway the consequence of this transition has resulted in the Axis Mundi going out later than usual, for which I apologise.

So now that we have reached the Autumn Equinox this celebration reminds us about the importance of bringing balance into our lives. It is also important at this time to remember that the only constant in life is change. Life can and does present us with a variety of tragedy, mediocrity and fleeting moments of joy. Our thoughts of course at this particular time go out to those victims of the recent disasters and we should be encouraged to send out healing and assistance to them at this time of need. We all long for some way to make sense of disasters like what’s now happening in Japan, especially with the added problem of the nuclear reactors, and there is a feeling of urgency to say something — anything! — that might help. It’s very difficult to know how to begin. None of us can claim to have previously experienced anything quite like what our planet is going through.

While we have no control over the planetary and universal shifts, we should ensure that we live each day as it comes and learn to appreciate the bountiful harvest of wisdom, love and friendship.

You’re alive. Do something. The directive in life, the moral imperative is so uncomplicated. It could be expressed in single words, not complete sentences. It sounds like this: Look. Listen. Choose. Act. ~ Barbara Hall

Janine Donnellan

Diary of a Heretic The Invisible Generation – Pagan Elders

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I have never been the type to be concerned about my age, although at times I think it is quite incredulous that I managed to get to this age in my life so quickly; time certainly flies when you are having fun.

Personally I have never thought of age as being a barrier to anything that I wanted to do. My father had instilled in me from an early age that I have the ability do anything that I put my mind to. This wonderful advice has stayed with me all my life and has been the impetus for me breaking through several glass ceilings placed before me throughout my working life.

Unfortunately we live in a youth oriented society where looking young has become a multi-billion-dollar industry. The sad aspect of this attitude about looks and age has the unfortunate power of curtailing an individual’s ultimate potential and talents at a relatively early age and thus depriving us of new skills and creative developments in many mediums such as art, writing, photography, music and technical innovation. Interestingly, this type of ageism is not only directed at today’s baby boomers which I am one of, but also at the old of tomorrow – the X & Y generations – a kind of pre-emptive negative stereotyping.

As a growing community we should recognize the perspective which is actually an ancient and indigenous perspective on aging – that with old age come many positives, especially the lived experiences and perspectives that are referred to as ‘wisdom’. There is a perception that the concept of respecting our elders appears to be disappearing, particularly with the younger generations.

Recently there had been some discussions on Facebook about the devaluing and disappearance of our pagan elders in our community and I thought that Axis Mundi would be an ideal forum to raise this important topic and to gauge other pagans’ viewpoints.

Perhaps the word disappearance is incorrect; perhaps our elders have merely become invisible by choice, having felt neglected or grown weary of the attitudes of the current pagan community and have simply left, retreated to their own private circles or have become solitaries.

I have to admit that occasionally I have felt like I have become ‘invisible’ to the community. I’m not sure if is from an age related invisibility or from ‘the not being accepted’ perspective, which could partly be related to some ageist attitudes, and partly related to my eclectic beliefs. There is a possibility that I could be leading myself down the garden path through my own somewhat distorted perceptions. But through talking to and hearing what other pagans have to say there is something amiss here and only through honest discussion can we bring our thoughts, desires and fears out into the open and bring about some positive resolutions.

I would like to state there is also an onus on our Elders not to recede into the background but to stand in their power and help break through the attitudes that are currently facing them and start sharing their experience and knowledge. It is after all a two way relationship.

In this issue of Axis Mundi we have included some articles and viewpoints relating to our older and wiser pagans and we would love to have some input from our readers. Let us know your views on whether you agree or disagree that our pagan elders are becoming the ‘Invisible Generation’ and some suggestions on what we can do the change the situation.

Nobody grows old merely by living a number of years. We grow old by deserting our ideals. Years may wrinkle the skin, but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul. ~ Samuel Ullman

Diary of a Heretic Uniting in Thought & Deed

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There seems to be a pattern emerging of late with various disasters occurring around the new year/January period. Last year it was the Haiti earthquake, the previous year it was the Victorian Bush Fires and this year the floods in Queensland and in Victoria. This recent disaster seems to be riding the tail of the last lunar eclipse which occurred during the Summer Solstice on December 21st.

Lunar eclipses are points of reference in times of change and the energies can be quite unpredictable and often associated with natural and man-made disasters. The total lunar eclipse on the 21st December 2010 was an extremely powerful trigger. According to various astrological reports this eclipse was conjunct and parallel to the nodal axis and coupled with the longitude conjunction to Pluto, acerbated the flooding particularly as its declination was also overhead Northern Queensland. In addition to the Australian floods there have also been devastating floods happening in other parts of the world, Brazil, Pakistan, Germany and Sri Lanka.

The state of Queensland has been hit by record flooding since Christmas, when tropical cyclone Tasha hit the coast on December 24 2010 near Cairns. Precious lives have now been lost and many people are still missing. This has been reported as the worst flooding in Australian history and a similar scenario is currently happening in Victoria.

It is going to take a while for everyone to fully process what has happened and it will take some considerable time to rebuild the homes and the hearts of the people that these floods have affected. Australians are however, tough and resilient people and I know that they will have the determination to restore their lives and their homes. Let us all now unite in thought and deed and send assistance and healing in whatever form we can, whether that be through donation, energetic healing, reiki or prayer.

Janine Donnellan

QLD Premier's Floods Appeal

Lifeline's Queensland Flood Appeal

Salvo's Floods Appeal

Vinnies NSW (& QLD) Floods Appeal

Australian Red Cross Victorian Floods Appeal

RSPCA QLD Flood Crisis Appeal

Diary of a Heretic Annus Horribilis

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“Opportunities to find deeper powers within ourselves come when life seems most challenging” ~ Joseph Campbell

There’s no doubt that this has been a particularly difficult year, and I am relieved like so many people that this annus horribilis is coming to an end. This year has been a year of challenges, a year of facing my fears and getting my life in order for a complete change in direction next year.

2011 will no doubt bring about new challenges and no one knows whether these challenges will bring about a change for the better. In numerology 2011 will be a 4 year which is associated with hard work and building strong foundations. This will be a year where we need to be more practical, organized and efficient and any success will only be achieved through endurance and discipline.

Even if 2011 does not seem to be what we want, I believe we have a new opportunity to lift ourselves to new levels of consciousness, spirituality and responsibility – lets us use this year as an opportunity to make a difference to our lives and our precious planet.

I would like to take this opportunity on behalf of Axis Mundi and Spheres Of Light to wish all our readers, members, contributors and sponsors a very Blessed Litha, and a safe and happy holiday season.

Janine Donnellan

Diary of a Heretic The Seeker of Knowledge

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Many people these days are searching for direction, their purpose in life, their spiritual path. We are living in a time where there are so many spiritual paths to choose from and trying to find the right information can become quite difficult, but that is all part of the journey of the seeker. Anything worthwhile requires much work and research, but the most important prerequisite to finding your path is the willingness to be open and honest with yourself.

Of course the more answers you find, the more questions you’ll have. Each of us finds our way to our spiritual path through many different doorways and those that are new to their path are encouraged to read as much as they can in order to find the pathway that feels right for them.

These days you will find plenty of online resources and books to stimulate your curiosity, and if you are like me, you will have invested a lot of money buying books in search of new knowledge that will bring you closer to enlightenment. I actually need a few more rooms in my house to store my ever increasing library.

I am pleased to announce that Axis Mundi is introducing a Book Corner where we will be conducting book reviews of favourite and new books and hopefully some author interviews. So feel free to send in your suggestions or feedback. Happy journeys and may your own spiritual path bring you much joy and happiness.

“To be a star, you must shine your own light, follow your own path, and don’t worry about the darkness, for that is when the stars shine brightest.” ~ Author Unknown

Diary of a Heretic I Can See Clearly Now

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There is a belief that we are all spiritual beings having a human experience that is unfolding perfectly from a cosmic perspective – with no accidents, coincidences, or mistakes, blah, blah, blah. Well I am sure that the person who came up with that initial concept must have lived a very ordered life or was a high ranking ascended master in the “know”, because my life has been anything but perfect over the past 12 months, and I would certainly hope that this calamitous episode was through my own mismanagement rather than from any grand cosmic intervention. After all we do have free choice and will and at some stage our stupidity must neutralise a portion of the cosmic stratagem coming our way.

Actually the thought of a higher being preplanning the events that would add to my pain and unhappiness borders on unmitigated evil. I am retracting that statement as I look to the skies for free falling thunderbolts. Ok I concede that destiny plays a part in getting us from A to B but sometimes the process is delayed because we have a tendency to deviate from the plan or occasionally have a stopover. Anyway my recent stopover, the hiatus I had to have, gave me a moment of clear vision to get me back on track. You see I have some major goals I want to achieve in this life and yes they may be ambitious but if I don’t aim for the stars and give it my best shot then I am going to get stuck in a permanent hiatus.

This is my journey and if I want it to be a productive and an enlightened experience then I have to take personal responsibility for my own transformation. My Spirituality therefore is a word that describes my own relationship with my self and I can harness the power of positive thinking and the creative energy of my own thoughts to manifest whatever I desire. There are no limits.

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.
~ Bob Marley

Diary of a Heretic Down the Rabbit Hole

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Strange energies have been transiting my life of late, so much so that I decided to take a giant leap down the rabbit hole into the topsy turvy world of my subconscious mind. In that wonderland world I am being forced to face my uniquely peculiar and anthropomorphic demons, in order that I can reactivate the creative processes that seemed to have been lost while I juggled the relentless mundane realities of life.

All these new pathways of understanding that are moving me into different directions, and taking me to unfamiliar places, have made me realise that there is no turning back. I’m not really sure that an exit does actually exist in this strange world of paradoxes, even though at times I long to return to that safe warm place of ignorance.

I am deliberately choosing to continue to walk this new dimension as a seeker, for it is indeed a scary and a beautiful journey of discovery. Of course at some higher level of understanding I knew things would be different and transformative, but I had no idea how difficult this process would be.

In the cycle of life you are constantly being faced with choices which require you to walk through pain and sorrow as well as love and joy. If we embrace the darkness we find the true, deep reasons why we need to progress along the unknown path. Once we strike out on our own, take risks and simply get on with it, then wonderful things in our life start to open up.

“If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn’t. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn’t be. And what it wouldn’t be, it would. You see?” ~ Alice in Wonderland