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Diary of a Heretic The Fire Within

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(Written February 22, 2008 by Janine)

Ah this eclipse is certainly pushing my buttons at the moment, making me restless and frustrated. I am caught in this inbetween place, between what I have to do and what I want to do. I feel like I am being stretched to the absolute limit, pulled to nothingness like sticky toffee. Duty over passion, responsibility over creative pursuits. Its that deep solar plexus discontent that is driving me to the point of ….. there is no word to describe how I feel, only a picture comes to mind of that painting of the Scream.

What is the purpose of this dissatisfaction, this saturnian manipulation, this not so subtle friction and constant rubbing and proding of my emotional contemplation?

I type into Google ‘what is my purpose’ and a website immediately grabs my attention – “If you don’t have passion and purpose, greater productivity wont help you. I read further down the blog ‘Until you discover your ‘fire within’ you will remain condemned to a life only endured, not lived; to delicacies only tasted, not devoured; to joys only imagined, not experienced. And in old age you will lament the days of your youth, when fears about money and security kept you from taking the leaps of faith and courage in the direction of your dreams.” Ok I get it, thats not the point, I have the fire within, I just need to get um ah ……..what? That is the conundrum, the million dollar question.

But in reality I do truly know in the deep bottomless heart of me what I need, I need the courage (the “guts”) to create a life out of doing what I love. I know what I love, I love doing what I do in Spheres Of Light, it is my passion, it is my fire within. So please Universe help me live the life I want to live, give me the space to create, to serve, to just be ME.

So mote it be.

Janine
February 22, 2008

Blog – Alister Cameron

http://www.alistercameron.com/2007/04/28/if-you-dont-have-passion-and-purpose-greater-productivity-wont-help-you/

Diary of a Heretic The Role of a Healer – Walking the Talk

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(Written November 30, 2007 by Janine)

“A mother came to the Hindu leader Mahatma Gandhi and said, ‘Gandhiji, tell my child to stop eating sugar.’ Gandhi responded, ‘Come back in three days.’ The mother was puzzled but she went away for three days. She returned and once again pleaded, ‘Gandhiji, please tell my child to stop eating sugar.’ He looked at the child and said ‘Stop eating sugar.’ Then the mother asked why it took him three days to give this instruction to her child. He replied, ‘Three days ago I was still eating sugar.’ “

In the role of the healer you need to model the behaviour you’re espousing, in other words you need to ‘walk the talk’. Easier said then done I know. As a healer myself I believe that you should treat all human beings not just your clients with compassion, respect and tolerance. Of course there will always be people that really get up your nose but if you cant treat them with compassion, respect and tolerance then perhaps you should reevaluate your motives for being a healer.

The healer is walking a spiritual path, a path of integrity and that should show through to whoever you connect with on your journey. You dont stop being a healer when you finish your client session, it follows you where ever you go. If you become arrogant and dissmissive of people it will reflect on you as a healer and as a spiritual being.

We are all here on this earth to learn and to grow and if you have been given a gift of healing then honour this gift in a way that it was intended. Open your heart and see the positive side of others. Perhaps if you find yourself in a position where someone is causing a negative effect on your emotions then you should look within to see why it is causing that response. Ask yourself are you honest with self and all who come into contact with you and can you honour the God/ess presence within each person regardless of how they feel about you?

So as a healer what is your integrity? Is it based on what your needs are and what your ego requires? If you walk your talk, then be conscious of your everday challenges with all, for it is then you will gain a real connection with the truth. This connection is more powerful than any false illusions created by your own sense of self importance.

Janine
November 30, 2007

Diary of a Heretic Glitter Graphics and the BBcode of Spellwork

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(Written August 14, 2007 by Janine)

glitter-graphics.com

I think that it is totally amazing that you can type in a series of letters called a BBcode which is a set of instructions to your computer and presto you have a picture. I played around with the glitter graphics last night and when I decided on a particular picture I tried to get it happening and it just didn’t come out properly. So when I reviewed the original code I realised that I had missed a symbol. Once I corrected the code it all worked out.

When you think about it, it is kinda like spell work; well actually it’s exactly like spellwork. You have a picture, a scenario in mind and you devise a sequence of instructions that you send out to the great computer called the universe and sometimes you get what you ask for and sometimes it goes horribly wrong.

If you analyse it you will realise that success all depends on the symbols of the code. Did you have the right intent? Did you consider all the consequences of your actions? Was the timing right? Were the words chosen correct and in the right sequence? Were the emotions right? etc etc.

You know, Spell work is all about the detail – the right detail. The next time you want to change the picture of your life think carefully about what you really want and make sure you have the right sequence of symbols and words in your BBcode. Get the picture?

Janine
August 14, 2007

Diary of a Heretic A Dragon Journey

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(Article written February 6, 2007 by Janine)

I have been taking advantage of my one hour train trips to & from work each day to embark on my Underworld and Upperworld journeys. These journeys are currently helping me access information for the upcoming Celtic Gods & Goddesses workshops. But today as I was preparing myself for meditation I was advised that I would be meeting the dragons instead. The dragon which normally accompanies me on my meditations, my gate keeper, was the dragon designated to take me on this journey. My gate keeper is an immense black dragon who I call Jack. That is not his real name of course; he is a silent dragon and has not told me his name. I know he gets a chuckle out of me calling him Jack although, I would not usually be as venturous to assign a dragon with such a mundane name as most dragons are very formal and often don’t have a human sense of humour. On this journey I am also accompanied by my totem animal – a young cheetah called Billy, and a guide – a medieval lass called Loni. They are my constant companions on my various adventures and it is appropriate that they accompany me today to meet the dragons.

Soon we are spiralling skyward and as I look down over the earth I notice the Georges River meandering directly below us. Suddenly I am aware of a large green dragon moving just under the water surface slowly heading down the river oblivious to our presence. It was an exciting discovery. As I head up through the clouds I watch the river become an ever decreasing line in the landscape and then I am suddenly hurtled rapidly through space and time. We seem to travel through a void of blackness, a continuum of emptiness, and then we arrive, or should I say we touch down on what appears to be a sheet of sea green glass. We all stand in silence waiting in an illuminating darkness, and then we perceive shapes in the distance, and then the dragons come. All sizes, all colours, all very curious; a large white dragon presents herself to us and she says her name is Esmeralda, but also mentions that is not her name but something that surfaced in my mind and she took possession of it.

The questions that I wanted to ask I didn’t get the opportunity as Esmeralda seemed to anticipate what I was thinking and launched into an explanation about the different dragon types within the cosmos; evidently they have varying densities and layers and all have a multitude of functions and destinies to meet. Dragons evidently don’t evolve as humans do, they transmute or metamorphasize. There are also other dragons that she is aware of that exist on higher planes and are pure wave forms or vibrations that communicate to the cosmos in a voice similar to a sonic boom, this voice incorporates concepts, formulas and instructions to other beings and the cosmic intelligence. These wave forms are not concerned with human evolution; to them we are just sub particles of cosmic particles.

Esmeralda explains that like me she is concerned with the big picture and that the planet earth is just one small component of her responsibilities. She assures me that everything in the universe is evolving at the same rate and as planned, with a bit of tweaking going on here and there to guarantee the right outcome. Interestingly, there appears to be a fair bit of human interaction happening with our planet and many souls are reincarnating to life times in the past to help manipulate and realign current & future outcomes; that is what Esmeralda refers to as tweaking.

I mentioned to the dragons about the drought situation in Australia, but their main concern was correcting the overall imbalances that are occurring on our planet at this present time. Esmeralda mentioned that our bodies were universes in themselves and perhaps we should stop polluting our own bodies first and that in itself would help alleviate some of our planetary problems. She seemed to cast a critical eye over my own neglected body and I definitely took her opinion on board.

Finally my visit came to an end. I thanked Esmeralda for her advice, gathered up my crew who were engaged in play with some of the smaller dragons and headed off back to my physical reality. Before we left however, Jack decided he would tell me his name which to my surprise was not a word as such but a sense, a feeling, an emotion and definitely very unique.

Janine
February 6, 2007

Diary of a Heretic Ten Qualities of Mature Spirituality

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(Article written November 23, 2006 by Janine)

There seems to be this great momentum of events and ideas happening around me at the moment. I am being pushed and shoved and generally made to feel unsettled. Which seems to be my normal state of being these days. My boundaries on all fronts of my life are being stretched and stretched and stretched.

I guess I am like a million other people trying to find some life balance in all of this chaos, and my mind is always being confronted with conundrums concerning my ideals and motives on everything from relationships, work issues and spirituality.

Which brings me to the matter on hand . My mind has been involved in an endless conversation on Dragons of late. Iam researching, contemplating, and meditating in preparation for the upcoming workshop. During this ongoing inner chatter of thought processes, I was stopped by a very small voice this morning it simply said ‘mature spirituality’. My mind immediately quitened and I thought deeply about this concept. How mature is my spirituality? I wondered if this was something that people pondered upon, on their long spiritual journey to reach actualisation?

Of course spirit has its own unique way of engineering a specified outcome and it wasnt long before I started my search for an answer. Consequently I came across a site on the web that seem to hold all the right information. A Buddist monk by the name of Jack Kornfield has written a book ‘A path with Heart’ which discusses mature spirituality. See what I mean about engineering an outcome.

Hmm… food for thought. The ten qualities of mature spirituality certainly resonate within my being. The big question is how can I evolve as a spiritual being when I live in this human shell with it’s limitations and restrictions. I live with this ongoing frustration of confinement. I guess I am ranting, but you see I want to progress my spirituality, and I try to transcend these limitations but I guess the answer here is acceptance . I need to learn to accept who I am and learn to live in harmony within myself. Perhaps I should just start with one quality of mature spirituality, just one small step at a time….. after all I have eternity to reach self actualisation, whatever that means.

Janine
November 23, 2006


A Buddhist monk Jack Kornfield wrote a popular book entitled A Path with Heart. In this book Kornfield lists the following ten qualities that define mature spirituality:

Nonidealism

The quality of nonidealism refers to acknowledging that no person, thing or event is perfect, including ourselves. We must adopt compassion and relate to others with the heart instead of through the lens of ideals held in the mind. Perfectionism is unattainable and leads to judgmental attitudes and being overly critical rather than caring and compassionate. We fail to appreciate the wonder and beauty of the world that when we attempt to achieve what can never be attained. What a burden if everyone we encounter was seeking perfection in us!

Kindness

Nonidealism leads naturally into the next quality of mature spirituality, kindness. This isn’t the sort of kindness that inspires us to rescue scrawny kittens or say something nice to our grumpy neighbor. It’s the fundamental notion of self-acceptance when we are kind to ourselves rather than maintaining a constant emotional field of guilt, blame or shame.

Self-acceptance

Self-acceptance is harder than it sounds and requires the third quality of mature spirituality, patience. Very few of us will wake up one morning with the realization that spiritual completeness came to us over night. Living in harmony with dharma, Tao, the universe, God, nature or with whatever we seek to harmonize is a process through time. Patience is not striving for accomplishment of a spiritual goal but recognizing it as being a journey through the seasons and beyond time.

Immediacy

Therefore the next quality of mature spirituality is immediacy. We find our spirituality in the here and now. It is not a gift to be bestowed in the future it is something we cultivate within the context of our lives. Joseph Campbell in The Power of Myth define eternity as something other than endless time. He said it was something outside of time. It was not the past and not the future, but now. This moment. But as soon as one contemplates the moment it is gone. That is eternity. So if one seeks eternal spirituality it must be a continual process of the here and now. One Zen saying is, “after the ecstasy, the laundry.”

Integrated & Personal Sense of the Sacred

So now we have an integrated and personal sense of the sacred as our next quality of mature spirituality. This is the direct opposite of compartmentalizing our lives. Nothing is divided between the sacred and the secular. We honor our spirituality in our every word and action. We don’t adopt a spiritual attitude when we walk through a door, we have it in the car on the way to work, when we made breakfast this morning and when we go to school or anywhere else . We tap into the spiritual nature of not only a bird’s twittering on a cool crisp day but in the wailing of a baby and the honking of a car horn.

Questioning

The next quality comes almost naturally to Unitarian Universalists and most, if not all of us, have very little difficulty with the notion of questioning. Mature spirituality is not adopting a philosophy or blindly following a teacher. Instead we recognize that we must see and experience for ourselves. We sustain a willingness to discover what is so without imitation. Yes, of course we turn to a living tradition for inspiration but we do not shy away from questioning the relevance and validity of any aspect of the sources of our faith.

Flexibility

This predisposition to questioning doesn’t automatically guarantee possession of the next aspect of mature spirituality, flexibility. Flexibility in this respect refers to responding to our world with compassion and understanding, recognizing the changing environment around us. Mature spirituality allows us to recognize when to stay present and when to let go. Flexibility is joyful and restful. It allows us to let go of strife and gives us the wisdom to know when to hold on and when to move on.

Embracing Opposites

This particular aspect is very different from nonidealism and kindness which are more childlike. The ability to embrace opposites is decidedly unchildlike. It is the ability to recognize that a single person is not all bad or all good but can choose to behave either way at different times. Someone who is angry is not angry all of the time. As we mature we become more comfortable with paradox, life’s ambiguities. Utter duality seems a rather naïve and simplistic world view. A person who embraces opposites can truly appreciate irony, metaphor and humor.

Concept of Relationship or Relatedness

Kornfield’s ninth quality of mature spirituality has to do with the concept of relationship or relatedness. We are always in relationship to something. We may have little control over what happens in our life but we can choose how to relate to our experiences. The mature spiritualist possesses a willingness to relate to all things. Although at times we may be sorely tested and tempted to withdraw from the world around us we can maintain such isolationism. We exist in relationship to the people in our lives, the food we consume, the air we breathe, and the ground we walk on. Remind anyone of our affirmation to respect the interdependent web of all existence?

Ordinariness

All of these qualities lead invariably to the tenth quality of ordinariness. This is a simple presence in the moment that allows the mystery of life to show itself. We cannot do that without nonidealism, kindness, patience, immediacy, integrated sacredness, questioning, flexibility, embracing opposites and a willingness to relate. This quality is finding a balance between what was and what will be, which is the here and now. Joseph Campbell refers to this moment as the true definition of infinity. Infinity isn’t the endlessness of time, it’s the illusiveness of the present moment. Once I have considered whether or not I am in the here and now, that moment is gone. The ordinariness of spiritual life comes from a heart that has learned trust and from a gratitude for the gift of human life.

The information above was edited from an article written by Ann Fuller, March 2006 about the book Kornfield, Jack, A Path With Heart, Bantam Books, New York, 1993. http://www.brevardminister.com/sermon_032606.htm

Diary of a Heretic Goddess of Vitality

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(Written November 2, 2006 by Janine)

“Pele Dreaming” – a limited edition sculpture by Herb Kawainui Kane

Over the past 2 years I have been going through a period of adjustment. My concepts of who I am and what I believe in have been changing. The mantle that was Janine has all but been shattered and the new shiny bits are starting to emerge.

Of course this transitional change can have its impact and at times my limits of endurance can become very stretched, and this unsettledness of my emotional & physical surroundings have nearly drained all of my inner resources.

I recently reached a point of sheer frustration and had called out to the Gods with that eternal shout for guidance, but was met with stony still silence. Was I to bear this burden of transformation all alone; was this solitude yet another trial to test the colour of my metal? There is not so much left now of that tower, only the shell that vacillates on the edge of its final disintegration.

Last night in my sanctum of sleep, in that place of endless darkness, an energy revealed itself. Compassionate and loving it was an energy that surprised me for I had not called her name, but she came nevertheless. Her softness was totally unexpected; She said that she had heard my voice and had come to help me in my resurrection. Her name is Pele, and she is the Goddess of Vitality. She is the keeper of the Sacred Fire, she is the ultimate eruption that spews out the cosmic force of life’s creation and I am truly humbled by her intervention.

Janine
November 2, 2006


(The information below was added by Jenwytch.)

One of the most dramatic goddesses of Hawaiian mythology, Pele has long lived in Hawaiian hearts and minds as the supreme personification of volcanic majesty and power. Within the Hawaiian cosmos all natural forces are regarded as life forces, related to humanity by common descent from the same ultimate creative spirits. Possessing the power to create new land, Pele also has a volcanic personality. She is by nature impetuous and lusty, jealous, unpredictable, and capable of sudden fury and great violence. She can also be gentle, loving, and as serene as her forests of ferns and flowering trees.

It is this aspect of her personality that becomes evident with this sculpture (at top of page). She is a gatherer of creative energy manifesting as pure compassion and caring for the aina (the land and its spirit) and the people who live on our planet.

PELE, HAWAIIAN GODDESS OF VOLCANOS.
KEEPER OF THE SACRED FIRE.
FILLED WITH LOVE, COMPASSION AND CARING
FOR HER PEOPLE WHO HOLD HER IN HIGH ESTEEM.
Me ke aloha pumehana
Hawaiian kahuna

Pele’s esoteric attributes include vitality and psychic awareness. Nervous energy can be harnessed to propel us into vital action, Pele is a fiery vitaliser and a dam breaker. She gives us a voice that resonates with inner security.

SUGGESTED MANTRA: VITALITY

SUGGESTED AFFIRMATIONS:
I am visible
My soul is awakened
My awesome power is released
I am free
I am revitalised
I am full of fiery passion
For my highest good and the highest good of all

CHAKRA: Solar plexus

GEMSTONES: Clover bark, citron, jasmin

Pele has arrived to rekindle your fires of passion. Have you been sitting still for too long? Have you been lulled into sleep by the routine and habits of your life? Have you stepped into the rhythm of another’s drum? It is time to awaken your awareness and to come into full consciousness. You must shed the veils of your own illusions to witness the truth. It is the time to explode your potential and power, to move, shake and create new ground. Pele says that when you awaken from your sleep, you will be in touch with your true power!

PELE

Goddess of Fire

by Betty Fullard-Leo

PELE – Goddess of Fire – Image by Herb Kawainui Kane

Described as “She-Who-Shapes-The-Sacred-Land” in ancient Hawaiian chants, the volcano goddess, Pele, was passionate, volatile, and capricious. In modern times, Pele has become the most visible of all the old gods and goddesses. Dwelling in the craters of the Big Island’s Kilauea Volcano, she has been sending ribbons of fiery lava down the mountainside and adding new land around the southeastern shore almost continuously since 1983.

Pele was born of the female spirit Haumea, or Hina, who, like all other important Hawai’i gods and goddesses, descended from the supreme beings, Papa, or Earth Mother, and Wakea, Sky Father. Pele was among the first voyagers to sail to Hawai’i, pursued, legends say, by her angry older sister, Na-maka-o-kaha’i because Pele had seduced her husband. Pele landed first on Kaua’i, but every time she thrust her o’o (digging stick) into the earth to dig a pit for her home, Na-maka-o-kaha’i, goddess of water and the sea, would flood the pits. Pele moved down the chain of islands in order of their geological formation, eventually landing on the Big Island’s Mauna Loa, which is considered the tallest mountain on earth when measured from its base at the bottom of the ocean.

Even Na-maka-o-kaha’i could not send the ocean’s waves high enough on Mauna Loa to drown Pele’s fires, so Pele established her home on its slopes. Here, she welcomed her brothers. A cliff on nearby Kilauea Mountain is sacred to her eldest brother, Ka-moho-ali’i, king of the sharks and the keeper of the gourd that held the water of life, which gave him the power to revive the dead. Out of respect for this brother, to this day, Pele never allows clouds of volcanic steam to touch his cliff.

Her other brothers also still appear on the Big Island mountain; Kane-hekili as thunder, Ka-poho-i-kahi-ola as explosions, Ke-ua-a-kepo in showers of fire, and Ke-o-ahi-kama-kaua in spears of lava that escape from fissures during eruptions.

Of all her siblings, Pele favored her youngest sister Hi’iaka, the most. Pele, Hi’iaka and another sister, Laka, goddess of hula, were all patronesses of the dance, but Hi’iaka was said to have hatched from an egg that Pele kept warm during the long canoe ride to Hawai’i by transporting it in her armpit.

After Hi’iaka grew to womanhood on the Big Island, Pele traveled in spirit form to the north shore of Kaua’i to witness a dance performance at a pahula, or dance platform, that still exists near Ke’e Beach. Here she manifested herself as a desirable young woman, and quickly fell in love with a handsome young chief named Lohi’au. She dallied with Lohi’au for several days, but eventually her spirit had to return to her sleeping body on the Big Island. Upon awakening, Pele sent Hi’iaka to convince Lohi’au to come to her. The sisters extracted vows from each other: Hi’iaka promised not to encourage Lohi’au should he become attracted to her and in return, Pele promised to contain her fires and lava flows so as not to burn a grove of flowering ohi’a trees where Hi’iaka danced with her friend Hopoe.

On Kaua’i, Hi’iaka found that Lohi’au had died of grief after Pele disappeared, but the graceful younger sister was able to restore his spirit to his body, bringing him back to life. Together, the two of them began the journey to the Big Island, but Pele’s suspicious nature got the best of her. Because forty days had passed since Hi’iaka had set out on her assigned mission, Pele decided she had been betrayed, and so sent a flood of lava into Hi’iaka’s ‘ohi’a-lehua grove, killing Hopoe in the process. When Hi’iaka saw the smoldering trees and her dancing friend entombed in lava, she flung herself into the arms of Lohi’au. In retribution, Pele set lose another stream of lava, which killed the mortal Lohi’au, but Hi’iaka, a goddess, could not be destroyed.

The legend has a happy ending, however, as yet another brother of Pele’s, Kane-milo-hai, reached out and caught Lohi’au’s spirit when he saw it floating past his canoe. He restored the spirit to Lohi’au’s body, and once again, the chief was brought back to life. Hi’iaka and Lohi’au returned to Kaua’i to live contentedly.

Legends about Pele, her rivals and her lovers abound. Most of the lovers she took were not lucky enough to escape with their lives when she hurled molten lava at them, trapping them in odd misshapen pillars of rock that dot volcanic fields to this day.

One lover who proved a match for Pele was Kamapua’a, a demi-god who hid the bristles that grew down his back by wearing a cape. The pig god could also appear as a plant or as various types of fish. He and Pele were at odds from the beginning; she covered the land with barren lava, he brought torrents of rain to extinguish her fires and called the wild boars to dig up the land, softening it so seeds could grow.

Pele and Kamapua’a raged against each other until her brothers begged her to give in, as they feared Kamapua’a's storms would soak all the fire sticks and kill Pele’s power to restore fire. In Puna, at a place called Ka-lua-o-Pele, where the land seems torn up as if a great struggle had taken place, legend says Kamapua’a finally caught and ravaged Pele. The two remained tempestuous lovers, it is said, until a child was born, then Kamapua’a sailed away and Pele went back to her philandering ways.

Pele’s greatest rival was Poliahu, goddess of snow-capped mountains, and a beauty who, like Pele, seduced handsome mortal chiefs. Pele’s jealousy flamed after she had a fling with a fickle young Maui chief named ‘Ai-wohi-ku-pua, as he was traveling to the Big Island to court a mortal chiefess, Laie. Paddling along the Hana Coast, ‘Ai-wohi-ku-pua saw Pele in human form as a beauty named Hina-i-ka-malama, riding the surf. He paused for a brief affair. Then he went on to the Big Island, where Poliahu seduced him. He convinced his personal goddess to release him from his promise to his first love, and went back to Kaua’i with the snow goddess. Pele (as Hina-i-ka-malama) chased after them, eventually winning back the fickle chief, but Poliahu was so vindictive, she blasted the lovers with cold and heat until they separated, and ‘Ai-wohi-ku-pua was left with no lover at all.

According to Hawaiian historian David Malo in his book “Hawaiian Antiquities,” in old Hawai’i, some gods and goddesses, including Pele, were believed to be akua noho, gods who talked. They could take possession of an earthly being, who became the god’s kahu. Malo writes, “The kahu of the Pele deities also were in the habit of dressing their hair in such a way as to make it stand out at great length, then, having inflamed and reddened their eyes, they went about begging for any articles they took a fancy to, making the threat, ‘If you don’t grant this request, Pele will devour you.’ Many people were imposed upon in this manner, fearing Pele might actually consume them.” Naturally, people who had seen others destroyed in Pele’s fiery lava flows, were terrorized by such a kahu.

Pele has continued to intrigue contemporary men. Not long after the old religion was abolished in 1819, the high chiefess Kapi’olani defied Pele by eating ‘ohelo berries at the edge of Halema’uma’u caldera without first offering them to or requesting Pele’s permission. In open defiance, Kapi’olani threw stones into the molten lava below. When she was not harmed, she insisted it proved Pele had no power and it was time for Hawaiian people to accept Christianity as their religion. In 1823, when Reverend William Ellis became the first white man to visit Kilauea, most Hawaiians accompanying the expedition were still in awe of the volatile goddess. The hungry missionaries began to eat ‘ohelo berries, but were quickly warned to give Pele an offering. Ellis wrote, “We told them …that we acknowledged Jehovah as the only divine proprietor of the fruits of this earth, and felt thankful to Him for them, especially in our present circumstances.”…We traveled on, regretting that the natives should indulge in notions so superstitious.” At the crater, the Hawaiian guides “turned their faces toward the place where the greatest quantity of smoke and vapor issued, and, breaking the (‘ohelo) branch they held in their hand in two, they threw one part down the precipice, saying:

E Pele, eia ka ‘ohelo ‘au;
(Oh, Pele, here are your branches)
e taumaha aku wau ‘ia ‘oe
(I offer some to you)
e ‘ai ho’i au tetahi
(some I also eat).”

To this day, tales of Pele’s power and peculiarities continue. Whispered encounters with Pele include those of drivers who pick up an old woman dressed all in white accompanied by a little dog on roads in Kilauea National Park, only to look in the mirror to find the back seat empty. Pele’s face has mysteriously appeared in photographs of fiery eruptions, and most people who live in the islands-whether Christian, Buddhist, Shinto, or other-speak respectfully of the ancient goddess. After all, she has destroyed more than 100 structures on the Big Island since 1983, and perhaps even more awesome than that, she has added more than 70 acres of land to the island’s southeastern coastline.

The extra information on Pele was compiled and added by Jenwytch from the following sources:
http://peledreaming.com/about-pele.html
http://www.goddess.com.au/goddesses/Pele.htm
http://www.coffeetimes.com/pele.htm
http://www.splash.net.au/goddess2/goddesspele/goddess.html (this reference, found in 2004, no longer exists)

Diary of a Heretic Beam Me Up

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(Written September 1, 2005 by Janine)

Ok I am sitting here at my computer googling instead of working. Nothing unusual about that, except that there is a sense of frustration bubbling up from the depths of my being and I am trying to get answers to questions that I am not sure are the right questions; if you get my drift.

So what’s happening in my life that’s getting me so uptight you might ask? Well you see that’s just the point. I don’t exactly know. Something is going on in the universe, well my universe at the moment that is making me question everything about my life.

So I am searching the net to find out what is going on. There are so many spiritual sites in cyber world and they all have various theories. I have read all about the DNA activation, the eleven gates and the shift we are going through that will prepare us for when we become 5th dimensional beings in the year 2012 when the Mayan Calendar ends. And some of those theories sound quite feasible and some are… well right off this planet, literally. Hey but who am I to judge? I’m just a mere mortal that is floundering at the moment because the powers that be won’t explain to me what’s going on in basic common English.

What precipitated this search for truth was this very unsettling strange dream I had a few nights ago, in the dream I was having a casual conversation with RA the God, as you do; it was one of those dreams that no words were spoken but you instinctively know what they’re talking about. Anyway the whole gist of the dream was that while we are carrying on as usual in this mundane life our vibrations and the planetary vibrations are being raised. Of course he didn’t tell me the meaning of life or the reason for this change in vibration or the reason why I am feeling so crap at the moment.

So I am sitting here at my computer keying in a combination of words, hoping that I find the site that has all the answers to the questions that I am not sure are the right questions. In frustration I type in “Hey Universe what the F**k is going on?” and the results of that search didn’t really answer what I was looking for, but I got to realize that there are a lot of very angry people out there in cyber world who have even less of an idea of what the f**ck is happening with our universe. But it was comforting to know that I am not the only one that is feeling like shit.

Normally under these circumstances I would come up with something inspirational to put everyone’s mind at ease. But actually nothing comes to mind. The good news is however that we have only 7 years and four months to go to December 2012 and if they are right and the world will become something completely different and we become truly 5th dimensional beings, then I don’t have to worry about working until I am 65 or stressing out about paying off my mortgage or wondering if I am going to have enough money to keep me going through my retirement. Yep 2012 – can’t wait.

Janine
September 1, 2005

Diary of a Heretic To Dream the Impossible Dream

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(Article written March 16, 2005 by Janine)

Here I am with only days to go before my epic pilgrimage to my ancestral home. Here I am once again on that ongoing quest for that bloody Holy Grail; and outwardly I appear quite calm and controlled, and inwardly I appear quite calm and controlled. But I have been dogged with this throbbing headache for the past few days. There is of course the tell tale signs of tension, the top of my head hurts, my neck is a bit stiff and muscles are all bunched up at the top of my shoulders. “I should go to the doctor for a check up” I say to myself. Should, but won’t. Well I console myself if I die overseas it is all part of the journey. I catch my reflection in the train window on my way to work and think “you’re a stupid bastard”. I should be more focussed on this trip and instead I am off in my dream world again, living out all possible scenarios, all most gallant and noble, all so very romantic. An image flashes before my eyes of an old beaten man on an old horse. Ha! I say Don Quixote, of course, not some gallant knight on his trusty steed looking for adventure but somewhat beaten up 52 year old out there making a fool of herself chasing windmills.

There are some striking parallels in this story; the central characters are the elderly, idealistic knight, who sets out on his old horse Rosinante to seek adventure, and the squire Sancho Panza, who accompanies his master from one failed adventure to another. This parallel of Sancho in no way reflects upon my friend Dianne who is accompanying me on this journey, (I’d better apologise at this point before I mysteriously disappear somewhere on the trip). Anyway, their relationship, although they argue most fiercely, is ultimately founded upon mutual respect. Gradually over time they take on some of each other’s attributes. Well I certainly hope that gets me out of a sticky situation!

Well here is where the story really seems to fit. During his travels, Don Quixote’s over excited imagination blinds him to reality: he thinks windmills to be giants, flocks of sheep to be armies, and galley-slaves to be oppressed gentlemen. Don Quixote is passionately devoted to his own imaginative creation, and of course to the beautiful Dulcinea. “Oh Dulcinea de Tobosa, day of my night, glory of my suffering…” etc, etc blah, blah, blah. Any way this is me, I have the most over excited imagination that blinds my reality. I am always in this eternal hope that I will receive some incredible enlightenment and I will transcend to some magical mystical spiritual plane, far removed from the madding crowd or should I say the maddening crowd, because most people really piss me off lately (friends excluded, of course).

So why do I go on this ongoing eternal quest for truth, justice and the American way? Oops, you know what I mean. I don’t bloody know why, all I know that there has to be something out there that is more than what is here. If that’s makes sense; I want to have the total experience, I want to go on incredible journeys and save humanity and at the end of my life I want to say that this life counts. That real or unreal, my experiences have made all the hardships and the mundane crap worth it. Yes I am Don Quixote, an old fool on a beaten horse, but I am not going to be stopped by reality, by the plain boring everyday existence, in truth I am going on an adventure into unknown territory. I don’t know what will befall me but whether the experience will be what I am hoping it will be will probably come down to how active my imagination is. Oh, a note to Caroline if in the unlikely event that I pass from this world into the next I want this song to be read as my eulogy and yes “To dream the impossible dream”.

The Impossible Dream (The Quest)

From Man of LaMancha
Lyrics by Joe Darion

To dream … the impossible dream …
To fight … the unbeatable foe …
To bear … with unbearable sorrow …
To run … where the brave dare not go …
To right … the unrightable wrong …
To love … pure and chaste from afar …
To try … when your arms are too weary …
To reach … the unreachable star …
This is my quest, to follow that star …
No matter how hopeless, no matter how far …
To fight for the right, without question or pause …
To be willing to march into Hell, for a Heavenly cause …
And I know if I’ll only be true, to this glorious quest,
That my heart will lie will lie peaceful and calm,
when I’m laid to my rest …
And the world will be better for this:
That one man, scorned and covered with scars,
Still strove, with his last ounce of courage,
To reach … the unreachable star …

Janine
March 16, 2005

Diary of a Heretic Cut the Crap

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(Article written February 24, 2005 by Janine)

I knew that would get your attention. You know I spend an extraordinary amount of time these days on the net. I am always researching information, looking for those rare tidbits of enlightenment. I have to admit there is some interesting stuff out there in cyberspace, but getting to the good bits you have to wade through a lot of crap. Instead of a virus filter may be we should develop a crap filter.

But I guess one could say what IS crap? How do we determine the definition of crap? Isn’t there a saying that goes something like “what is one man’s crap is another man’s treasure”? But I am sure that as we develop our minds and evolve, things and ideas that we once considered valuable becomes obsolete over a period of time.

In times past if I read something so out of the ordinary, so out there, you would hear me say “What the f**k – no way”. However, these days I am more perceptive and I try to keep an open mind. Recently I came upon this website and how I wish I kept it on my favourites list so I can reference it, but it was about this alien invasion of earth and how there are these invisible caverns underneath the earth’s surface which are harbouring these beings. Evidently the earth is shining brighter than it has been for 500,000 years and with the recent earthquake and the shifting of the plates, the planet is geared for the next stage of its evolution and a whole legion of aliens and their space ships are waiting on the outskirts of the planet for the right combination of vibrations to land. After I read this interesting article did you hear me say “What the”…. nope, it was more like “HUH – Hmmm” (quiet contemplation, thinking seriously here). Didn’t I have a dream about an alien invasion the other night? Come to think of it didn’t I have a dream about talking to a giant 6 foot rabbit dressed in a waistcoat called an apooka the other night? And no it was not a fluffy bunny.

Ok let’s have a reality check here, no this is not twilight zone, well maybe. Sometimes I don’t know what zone I am in, real reality, virtual reality, cyber reality, alternate reality! How many realities can there be? Talking about alternate reality, last Sunday at meditation at the Royal National Park I was taking our regular group through a healing meditation. We were swimming through pools of colour to align and balance our chakras. At one moment in the meditation I was in a room that had a chalice of elixir sitting on a table which I had to drink for healing and to activate my DNA. Suddenly I had this incredible sense of the colour orange gold around me and my meditation became three dimensional. The colour had depth and a real physical presence. It was very disorientating. In fact when the meditation was finished everyone was so spaced out they had to go hug a tree.

I guess we all have had these strange experiences, right… right (total silence, crickets chirping in the background). So who really knows what’s real, what’s truth, what’s crap? Hey, maybe there is a legion of aliens out there waiting to invade earth. Let’s face it they couldn’t do a worse job of looking after the planet than the current caretakers.

You know the net really is an exciting invention. There is a plethora of interesting sites that contain somewhat bizarre and mind altering information out there in cyber reality. You know once upon at time I thought witchcraft was crap, now I know different and who knows about the alien thing. Hey I just had this picture flash before my eyes of some poor naive soul keying in a subject in Google and ending up in this website. Can you imagine what they would say “what the f**k – no way” or HUH – hmmm.

Janine
February 24, 2005

Diary of a Heretic Sacred Feminine

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(Article written in May 2004)

I had planned to write an article on Soul Mates. I was going to start with a fairy tale, you know the type; a fair maiden pining away in her ivory tower, waiting to be rescued by a valiant prince on his trusty steed, blah blah blah. But as things often go I was distracted and somehow found myself back on the trail of the Holy Grail. This has been an ongoing journey for me for the past 15 years and just when I believed it’s all been investigated the Grail finds me once again and off I go on my next venture of discovery.

I have just finished a book called the Da Vinci Code a fictional story with some interesting twists and some possible truths regarding the nature of the grail. While the book’s characters are not real, the artwork, architecture, documents, and secret rituals depicted in this novel all exist. I found this novel essentially empowering to women. It explains how over two thousand years ago, we lived in a world of Gods and Goddesses. Today, we live in a world based on Gods, particularly one God. Women in most cultures today have been stripped of their spiritual power. The novel touches on questions of how and why this shift occurred… and on what lessons we might learn from it regarding our future. The novel embraces the Sacred Feminine and elevates Mary Magdalene to her rightful place beside her companion Jesus Christ.

And so for many an hour as I read this book I got lost in an imaginary world of conspiracy, of hidden messages and anagrams and then it happened, the light came on and I saw everything in perspective. For two thousand years we have had this hidden truth staring us in the face. Troubadours would journey throughout the countryside in the Middle Ages telling tales of heroic deeds of fair maidens being rescued by gallant knights and beautiful songs sung all containing hidden messages about the true nature of the Sacred Feminine. Hans Christen Anderson wrote about it in Snow White and Sleeping Beauty and as children we were fed copious amounts of fairy tales and somehow it missed the point because we were all blind to the truth or should I say blinded.

Here we are thinking that one day our true love will arrive and carry us away and we will live happily every after. How often do you hear someone saying ‘I am waiting for my Soul Mate to come’? I am sorry ladies but you have got it all wrong, this isn’t about waiting for the love of your life to kiss it better and make it all go away. These stories are about us finding out who we really are it is about standing in our own power and being equal. It’s about reclaiming back what was lost – our Sacredness.

According to John L Payne from a group called Inner Self?, there is much conjecture and misunderstanding regarding the term Soul Mates. The whole point of a soul mate turning up in your life is to show you to yourself. That is the purpose of all human relationships. You learn through viewing in the mirror. The Law of Attraction works in every aspect of your life and therefore each person drawn into your life is there through vibration, and nothing else. They are present because your vibration and their vibration are matched in some way. So many people get confused when they meet the person of their dreams, fall happily in love, and declare, “This is my soul mate,” and then they have to pick up the pieces a few years down the road when the relationship breaks up or the person you loved turns out to have some problems or personality traits you do not care for. So if you are sitting at home lamenting over the fact that you don’t have a ‘special relationship’ in your life right now, do me a favour and take a good look at your self in the mirror. The only person who can really fix all your problems and make you complete is you. Now is a good time to embrace your sacredness and your divinity for you are truly a Goddess.

Janine
May 2004