Diary of a Heretic

(Article written in May 2004)

I had planned to write an article on Soul Mates. I was going to start with a fairy tale, you know the type; a fair maiden pining away in her ivory tower, waiting to be rescued by a valiant prince on his trusty steed, blah blah blah. But as things often go I was distracted and somehow found myself back on the trail of the Holy Grail. This has been an ongoing journey for me for the past 15 years and just when I believed it’s all been investigated the Grail finds me once again and off I go on my next venture of discovery.

I have just finished a book called the Da Vinci Code a fictional story with some interesting twists and some possible truths regarding the nature of the grail. While the book’s characters are not real, the artwork, architecture, documents, and secret rituals depicted in this novel all exist. I found this novel essentially empowering to women. It explains how over two thousand years ago, we lived in a world of Gods and Goddesses. Today, we live in a world based on Gods, particularly one God. Women in most cultures today have been stripped of their spiritual power. The novel touches on questions of how and why this shift occurred… and on what lessons we might learn from it regarding our future. The novel embraces the Sacred Feminine and elevates Mary Magdalene to her rightful place beside her companion Jesus Christ.

And so for many an hour as I read this book I got lost in an imaginary world of conspiracy, of hidden messages and anagrams and then it happened, the light came on and I saw everything in perspective. For two thousand years we have had this hidden truth staring us in the face. Troubadours would journey throughout the countryside in the Middle Ages telling tales of heroic deeds of fair maidens being rescued by gallant knights and beautiful songs sung all containing hidden messages about the true nature of the Sacred Feminine. Hans Christen Anderson wrote about it in Snow White and Sleeping Beauty and as children we were fed copious amounts of fairy tales and somehow it missed the point because we were all blind to the truth or should I say blinded.

Here we are thinking that one day our true love will arrive and carry us away and we will live happily every after. How often do you hear someone saying ‘I am waiting for my Soul Mate to come’? I am sorry ladies but you have got it all wrong, this isn’t about waiting for the love of your life to kiss it better and make it all go away. These stories are about us finding out who we really are it is about standing in our own power and being equal. It’s about reclaiming back what was lost – our Sacredness.

According to John L Payne from a group called Inner Self?, there is much conjecture and misunderstanding regarding the term Soul Mates. The whole point of a soul mate turning up in your life is to show you to yourself. That is the purpose of all human relationships. You learn through viewing in the mirror. The Law of Attraction works in every aspect of your life and therefore each person drawn into your life is there through vibration, and nothing else. They are present because your vibration and their vibration are matched in some way. So many people get confused when they meet the person of their dreams, fall happily in love, and declare, “This is my soul mate,” and then they have to pick up the pieces a few years down the road when the relationship breaks up or the person you loved turns out to have some problems or personality traits you do not care for. So if you are sitting at home lamenting over the fact that you don’t have a ‘special relationship’ in your life right now, do me a favour and take a good look at your self in the mirror. The only person who can really fix all your problems and make you complete is you. Now is a good time to embrace your sacredness and your divinity for you are truly a Goddess.

Janine
May 2004