Diary of a Heretic

Ok I am sitting here at my computer googling instead of working. Nothing unusual about that, except that there is a sense of frustration bubbling up from the depths of my being and I am trying to get answers to questions that I am not sure are the right questions; if you get my drift.

So what’s happening in my life that’s getting me so uptight you might ask? Well you see that’s just the point. I don’t exactly know. Something is going on in the universe, well my universe at the moment that is making me question everything about my life.

So I am searching the net to find out what is going on. There are so many spiritual sites in cyber world and they all have various theories. I have read all about the DNA activation, the eleven gates and the shift we are going through that will prepare us for when we become 5th dimensional beings in the year 2012 when the Mayan Calendar ends. And some of those theories sound quite feasible and some are… well right off this planet, literally. Hey but who am I to judge? I’m just a mere mortal that is floundering at the moment because the powers that be won’t explain to me what’s going on in basic common English.

What precipitated this search for truth was this very unsettling strange dream I had a few nights ago, in the dream I was having a casual conversation with RA the God, as you do; it was one of those dreams that no words were spoken but you instinctively know what they’re talking about. Anyway the whole gist of the dream was that while we are carrying on as usual in this mundane life our vibrations and the planetary vibrations are being raised. Of course he didn’t tell me the meaning of life or the reason for this change in vibration or the reason why I am feeling so crap at the moment.

So I am sitting here at my computer keying in a combination of words, hoping that I find the site that has all the answers to the questions that I am not sure are the right questions. In frustration I type in “Hey Universe what the F**k is going on?” and the results of that search didn’t really answer what I was looking for, but I got to realize that there are a lot of very angry people out there in cyber world who have even less of an idea of what the f**ck is happening with our universe. But it was comforting to know that I am not the only one that is feeling like shit.

Normally under these circumstances I would come up with something inspirational to put everyone’s mind at ease. But actually nothing comes to mind. The good news is however that we have only 7 years and four months to go to December 2012 and if they are right and the world will become something completely different and we become truly 5th dimensional beings, then I don’t have to worry about working until I am 65 or stressing out about paying off my mortgage or wondering if I am going to have enough money to keep me going through my retirement. Yep 2012 – can’t wait.

Janine
September 1, 2005